Waking up feeling depressed.... really don't feel like going to work.... all sort of craps... but now still cannot afford to do that, damn it.

Planing to quit after Feb holiday, if I can survive till then, that is. My wife has been looking forward for the trip, cannot disappoint her.... die die also have to endure till then....

Still working hard for my trading business.... hope to consistantly make money from the market... need to be disciplined....

There is this fear depp inside.... what if I cannot make it? how am I going to earn a living?? This fear keep holding me back....