Trading seems like never the same since the day I blew it up..... although have been making money, but for some reseaon the account balance does not show up.

Need to work on this more, to get 200-400 perday, if not, how to trade for a living??

many time when looking at newspaper and magazines, saw those successful people, like the lady banker in Morgan stanley, she is only 38, same age as I do, but is far ahead of me. Given my personality and my drive, I am just thinking I will be falling further and further behind.

Not that I care that much, since I think an isloated and quiet life is more suitable for me, but the thought of achieving lesser than others just does not make me feel good. Maybe this is what is meant by jealousy. The other thing is of course financially, that mean that I am not as good as them, and I really could not careless what other perople achieve as long as I can be financially free......... I am embarking on this journey to financial freedom, but I just do not know if I can make it.......

I hope that I can survive in the arena of trading and can make a living out of it.