I really wonder if I had made the wrong choice in joining this new company. I thought I am hired to make changes, but that bitch is really too much. But what to do, I still need the job. No matter how I calculate, I will at least need 2 years to be able to go on my own, and that is only if eveyrthing goes smoothly.

I am sick and tire of life, really hope that I can just lay my trouble with God.