I am really sick, I think.... sick of life, that is.

What is happening to me? I have a master degree, a CFA, worked in a Swiss Bank before, and yet, I cannot make it and a guy that I knew of with only "O" level is now setting up his own firm, trading for a living and teaching others.... and he is making more money than I do!

I am tired, but I have to fight on, and I have to continue to learn. What I need is discipline as shown in my own trading. I can make it, I just need discipline.

I made up my mind that I will one day go live in Japan for a year or two. And this need money, so as far as I sees it, the only way I can achieve that given my present situation is to make it through trading. As long as I can trade for a living, I can trade anywhere inthe world. So even in Japan, I can still have income.

Will GOD help me on this? I hope so.

Think I need to clean up all my trades and refocus on my goal. Come on.... I can do it.