I just have this uneasy feeling, the feeling that my boss is going to fire me.

Not that I wish to stay in this job, but the reality is that I need a monthly paycheck inorder to survive. I may be able to get by in my trading, but it will be much more comfortable with a monthly paycheck so that at least I know that my expense is being taken care of. Also, if there are losses, at least I know that I still have a paycheck to cover my loss in the subsequent month.

I hope I am wrong in this feeling. This will probably be the worst of time to lose a job, with my baby boy coming. Sometimes I feel so useless. As a top student in my university, how come I have to endure such fate. The fungshui master, after looking into my birth chart, told me straight at my face that my career is going down the drain and that is going to affect my every other thing - marriage, relationship, self-confidence etc. etc. The only way is to be above to make money, and for that, I paid 1500 for a pennant. Hope this really help.

I really hope that I can run my trading business successfully. As long as I can generate an amount about the same as my monthly paycheck, I think I should be fine. So God, please help me.

I think I have hit the wall in my career.

Sometimes, I really regret I did not take up the offer from ARA. If I had, I think my sense of purpose will probably still be there. Now I totally has no idea what the hack is going on in the company, since this is how my boss wanted it to be.

My only hope now is for my own trading to be successful. Once this can be done, at least I know I can do something for a living. Nowadays, it is so difficult to get a job that pay me my curent salary, especially with my age. But even if I am willing to take a pay cut, I still cannot find a decent job.

Nevertheless, my own trading has been prgressing well for the past few months, and once my trading income exceed by paycheck, that is the time I can feel relax. But for now, just have to put up with my idiot boss. So I am begining to treat my trading as my profession and my current job as part time, hahaha..... the only problem is that I spent a full 9 hour day in my part-time job and 1-2 hour in my full time job, with my full time job only paying 20% of my part-time job. Once I can achieve my goal of both my full and part time job is of equal pay, than I think I have made it. I than have a choice whether to put up with my idiot boss.

Maybe by than, for the sake of the pay, just put up with it, at the end of the day, where to find a part time job that pay the same or even more than your full time job?

Really have enough of that idiot boss.

Everyday ask me some elementry question, I really have doubt that he is a former investment banker. Why must I put up with all these? Well simple, he is the one paying my salary, that's why.

I am really working hard to be able to trade for a living. At current moment, I can forget about getting another decent job, just nobody will want to employ me. If I can pull it through, I need another 2-3 years if things goes smoothly, than I can make about the same amount of money in trading as with my salary. Than that time, I have a choice whether to continue or not. At least I have a choice, unlike now whereby I have no choice but LL.......

The pantry lady also complaint to me everyday about him, sigh..... but what can I do?

I dream of setting up a business on my own, which is trading for a living. According to what I am doing now, I just need to trade for 2 hours inthe evening if need be, but often I do not need to. The only time that I need to stay up the whole night is on the third friday of the month when option expire, other than that, just 1-2 hours is enough if need be. So just imagine, my day time is free to do what I like......

But this is still a pipe dream, I still need another 2-3 years to build my capital base, until then, just have to put up with my idiot boss.