I think I have hit the wall in my career.

Sometimes, I really regret I did not take up the offer from ARA. If I had, I think my sense of purpose will probably still be there. Now I totally has no idea what the hack is going on in the company, since this is how my boss wanted it to be.

My only hope now is for my own trading to be successful. Once this can be done, at least I know I can do something for a living. Nowadays, it is so difficult to get a job that pay me my curent salary, especially with my age. But even if I am willing to take a pay cut, I still cannot find a decent job.

Nevertheless, my own trading has been prgressing well for the past few months, and once my trading income exceed by paycheck, that is the time I can feel relax. But for now, just have to put up with my idiot boss. So I am begining to treat my trading as my profession and my current job as part time, hahaha..... the only problem is that I spent a full 9 hour day in my part-time job and 1-2 hour in my full time job, with my full time job only paying 20% of my part-time job. Once I can achieve my goal of both my full and part time job is of equal pay, than I think I have made it. I than have a choice whether to put up with my idiot boss.

Maybe by than, for the sake of the pay, just put up with it, at the end of the day, where to find a part time job that pay the same or even more than your full time job?