Today is the 3rd Friday of the month. I am fighting for my account to close above 66k. Hoping that XLE and OIH will go higher so that my options can expire worthless....

Actually I am very disappointed with myself.... I should be having above 70k now, but instead it is lagging my target. I rework my forecast and hope that I can achieve a trading income the same as my full time job income in the next 15 months. Hope that God will help me.

I get really sick of my boss. I just hope that my trading income can equal my job income, than I can quit my job. Of course, I can quit my job, but that does not mean that I will, at least not yet.
If I can make the same amount of money both side, why bother to quit my full time job? The only reason will be that it is so unbearable here, which sometime, it is. However, on balance, still ok, for now. I do not know how long can I last, but definatly need to last untill I can make enough for me to maintain my current lifestyle. If I can make say 10-12k, than yes, I can consider quitting, or at least I can fuck care my boss... I can hit back at him as I don't need to fuck care about the job...... I am waiting for that day.... THE DAY..... but now still can't, so LL have to take it for the time being.

I am in fact now, writing my dream into a spreadsheet. At every stage, I will reward myself with something... this is what keep me motivated..... rewards like having a meal in a top restaurant, making overseas trip, change my car, even take a course.....

I really hope one day I can achieve this..... I really, really feel like telling my boss off man.....besides, if I can have that type of income, I can print my namecard with a MD title. Not that I cannot do it now, but just do not feel right loh,,,,,