Sigh, my profit earned last month is almost wipe out this month. What the heck is happening to the market??

Day by day, I am just gettingmore and more sick of this working place. I deam of setting up my own business. I dream of just renting a service office at a few hundred dollars whereby I can have access 24/7 and an internet broadband conection so that I can have a place to go to do some work ( not serious work though). I dream of printing my name card so that I can tell the world that I am on my own, giving myself a fancy title like MD. With a service office in town, I can pop in anytime I like and use the workstation to take a rest, read books etc., a very attractive option. But the cost is high compared with other option. Forexample, if I take a season parking at URA, it cost 180, plus the service office at 450, the cost comes to 630 per month. Throw in ocassional drive around it probably comes up to 650 per month. Alternative is to just have the season parking only, than the cost is 180. But this mean that I have to hang around town either in the library or some other places for the whole day, which is not very appealing. So have to factor in more trip back home and the cost will probably come to say 250. Lastly, forget both the season parking and service office. That mean have to make 2 trip per day. So if I were to travel to say the library etc, need to pay for additional transportation, plus need additional electricity bill. So think all in is about 150. It seems that the season parking only option is the best compromise, but I really hope that my trading business can be good enough to pay for the service office. Only with a service office will I really feel that I have achieve something...

But all this is just that, a dream. I still need this job to pay my bill... so what to do but to put up with my idiot boss?

What my life is such a failure? I can emphathise with the Japanese guy that went on a killing spree in Akihabara..... I can understand how he feel. Being from an elite school but face lossing his job, tire of living..... well all these are just too similar to my situation. ut at least I am slightly better, still have a job (though it sucks), a wife (I thank God for having her as my wife), and will be a father soon. I really need to make my this trading business work, not only for myself, but also for my baby boy. I want to give him the best, I want him to have a good education, I want him to achieve things that I did not achieve... I put my hope on him....