Job hunting

Been jobless for the pass three months..... went for numerous interviews and the fraustrating thing is that none of the interviewers offer me a job.... I mean, if they thing that my resume is not good, why bother to ask me for the interview... total waste of my time.

It just feel so lousy sitting at home everyday while my wife is out working....she is having problems with her work.... and I really do not know what to do to help... in fact I am so helpless and useless..... if there is a God up there, then are you listening to my plead? I just want a job...

Try to make a living by trading, and the result is that I lost 11 k USD in the market..... what the hell is happening to my life? Try to see if fungshui help.... but after spending so much money in consultation, renovation and buying all those things, my luck seems to turn for the worst.....

I do not know how long more can I endure..... sometimes, I just hope that once I fall asleep, I can just fall asleep forever and never wake up.... unfortunately, that never happens.

Come to thing about it, in both of my workplace in American MNC, both ended up as the wrong place to work.... first was with GM..... can fired when they consolidate the operation to Europe, and with my ex-company, things just turn out so badly... especially with my asshole boss....... I just curse both these companies and hope that they go bankrupt.... good things is that GM may be bankrupt soon, and my curse seems to be working.....